YOU'LL REGRET IT WHEN YOU SEE THE BACK OF ME.

 

je'taime bb.

 

TIL DEATH DO US PART. RONSON STYLE.

FEAST YOUR EYES ON THIS WEDDING BELL BLISS..

 

IT'S A NICE DAY FOR A WHITE WEDDING.

MARK RONSON AND JOSEPHINE DE LA BAUME FOR JALOUSE MAGAZINE. DOING A MOCK WEDDING OF SHEER GORGEOUSNESS.
NOT LIKE THE REAL WEDDING WASN'T TO DIE FOR....

WOMEN.

"I, WITH A DEEPER INSTINCT, CHOOSE A MAN WHO COMPELS MY STRENGTH, WHO MAKES ENORMOUS DEMANDS ON ME, WHO DOES NOT DOUBT MY COURAGE OR MY TOUGHNESS. WHO DOES NOT BELIEVE ME NAIVE OR INNOCENT, WHO HAS THE COURAGE TO TREAT ME LIKE A WOMAN."
 
-ANAIS NIN


 

CHANGE.

"IT TAKES A LOT OF COURAGE TO RELEASE THE FAMILIAR AND THE SEEMINGLY SECURE, TO EMBRACE THE NEW.
BUT THERE IS NO REAL SECURITY IN WHAT IS NO LONGER MEANINGFUL.
THERE IS MORE SECURITY IN THE ADVENTUROUS AND EXCITING, FOR IN MOVEMENT THERE IS LIFE, AND IN CHANGE THERE IS POWER."
- ALAN COHEN

ABUNDANCE/LACK.

 

Both abundance and lack exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities.

It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend.
When we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives, 
but are grateful for the abundance that's present--
love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature, and personal pursuits that bring us pleasure 
--the wasteland of illusion falls away, and we experience heaven on earth" 

 

- Sarah Ban Breathnach

WANNABE.

"I BELIEVED THAT I WANTED TO BE A POET, BUT DEEP DOWN I JUST WANTED TO BE A POEM."
 
JAIME GIL DE BIEDA
 
 

MEN WHO HAD CARED FOR HER.

"HER FACE WAS SAD AND LOVELY WITH BRIGHT THINGS IN IT, BRIGHT EYES AND A BRIGHT PASSIONATE MOUTH, BUT THERE WAS AN EXCITEMENT IN HER VOICE THAT MEN WHO HAD CARED FOR HER FOUND DIFFICULT TO FORGET; A STINGING COMPULSION, A WHISPERED: 'LISTEN',  A PROMISE THAT SHE HAD DONE GAY, EXCITING THINGS JUST A WHILE SINCE AND THAT THERE WERE GAY EXCITING THINGS HOVERING IN THE NEXT HOUR."
 
- F. SCOTT FITZGERALD, THE GREAT GATSBY
 
PIC FROM PURPLEBLOG.

TRUTHS.

WHEN I GROW UP.

I WANNA BE BEYONCE!!!!

KISSY KISSY.

PRADA RESORT 2012 AND THAT HOT DIGGITY LIP PRINT.
NOBODY ROCKED IT BETTER THAN ANNABELLE.
 

BADLANDS.

I FUCKING LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT SISSY'S WARDROBE IN BADLANDS.
YUMMY YUMMY SCREW SCREW.

MON PETIT CHOU.

 

BEAT THE DEVILS TATTOO.

 
You have forsaken all the love you've taken
Sleeping on a razor there's nowhere left to fall
Your body's aching every bone is breaking
Nothing seems to shake it it just keeps holding on
Ah ah ah ah

Your soul is able death is all you cradle
Sleeping on the nails there's nowhere left to fall
You have admired every man desires
Everyone is king when there's no one left to pawn
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Ah ah ah ah

There is no peace here war is never cheap dear
Love will never meet it it just gets sold for parts
You cannot fight it all the world denies it
Open up your eyelids and let your demons run
Ah ah ah

I thread the needle through you beat the devil's tattoo
I thread the needle through you beat the devil's tattoo
 
-BLACK SOUL MOTORCYCLE CLUB

THIS BOOK. FUCK YEAH.

"I guess I've been waiting so long I'm looking for perfection. That makes it tough."

"Waiting for perfect love?"

"No, even I know better than that. I'm looking for selfishness. Like, say I tell you I want to eat strawberry shortcake. And you stop everything you're doing and run out and buy it for me. And you come back out of breath and get down on your knees and hold this strawberry shortcake out to me. And I say I don't want it anymore and throw it out the window. That's what I'm looking for."
― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

FEELING/HEALING.

"She's letting out her feelings. The scary thing is not being able to do that. When your feelings build up and harden and die inside, then you're in big trouble."
― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood 
 
 

 

THE TOTAL ECLIPSE OF YES.

THAT'S THE SIGNATURE OF MY LOVE FOR YOU. YOU CAN'T FORGET ME WITHOUT LOSING YOURSELF.

YOU FUCKED UP SKINNY.

"I kissed her and saw that her eyes were shut. I kissed both her shut eyes. I thought she was probably a little crazy. It was all right if she was. I did not care what I was getting into."

— Ernest Hemingway, A Farewell to Arms

 

SLEEP TIGHT OR DON'T.

"A Japanese legend says that if you can't sleep at night it's because you're awake in someone else's dream."

YOHJI WISE

"Let me talk like an old man. Young people, be careful. Beautiful things are disappearing every day. Be careful.…You don't need to be [shopping at fast-fashion stores], especially young people. They are beautiful naturally, because they are young. So they should even wear simple jeans and a T-shirt. It's enough. Don't be too much fashionable.…The brand advertising is making you crazy. You don't need to be too sexy. You are sexy enough."

— Yohji Yamamoto

 

TIMELY.

 

WATCH IT.

"Be careful with sadness. It is a vice."

— Gustave Flaubert

 

YOU HEARD IT.

Allow me to put this forth: let's get the fuck outta this town.
'this town' being 'my mind'.
Sometimes (right now) I wish I could delete everything that has ever happened and start again.
"but why?" you may ask.

Because then I can be void of the repetitiveness of my current state of heart/mind.

Because THEN I will be able to ensure that I can re-set my neurological wiring, to be certain that I don't embed anymore of the patterns that my brain has grown so fond of.

Have I lost ya?

You better play catch up.

Humans have a dirty little habit of handing themselves the same fucking experience over and over again.

This is because neurological pathways are made deeper by repeated use. (duh)

So we have what are called 'patterns' or 'behavioural patterns'.

These 'patterns' are really in the form of 'experiences'.

Have you ever found yourself having the same experience over and over again, just with different people?

I have.

The worst part about this whole shebang (cute word?) is that most of it is done sub-consciously; When you aren't even aware.

Yep, do you feel like you've just been slapped with the truth?

You have.

Just incase any of you are finding it hard to keep up- what I am saying is, we walk around repeating the same process and we are basically getting ourselves into the same shit over and over again, and we don't even know we are doing it until we have fully landed in the thick of it.

Now, it's not all bad news kids.

The remedy?

If you enjoy a dramatic overtone quite like I do, then you can pray to Jimi Hendrix to save your soul and delete your entire past to avoid making acquaintance with any of your 'patterns'.

But let's be realistic; Jimi don't give a faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

The remedy lies in your mental strength, courage and awareness of your mind.

You basically are going to have to babysit your mind.

You'll have to keep an eye on your triggers (things that set you off) and be aware of scenarios that pop up and how you behave.

-Are you doing what you have always done?
-Why? Are you scared?

PAY ATTENTION!

Pay attention to your mind and your body.

-How do things make you feel?

Do some conversations make you want to run in the opposite direction? If the answer is yes, and that is what you have always done; then now is the time to create a new pathway!!!

WERK IT, BABY!

This is how we embed new pathways and start to change our 'patterns'. We take a new road, face a fear, do something we have never done, make ourselves vulnerable- whatever! Just stop doing the same shit and expecting a different result!

VOILA.

It won't happen overnight, but it will happen.

We have spent years and years developing these 'grooves' in our brain, we have been making them real deep and now it is time to make NEW ones! Naturally, the old grooves are gonna be deeper and so much easier to use...but you have to work at this.

You have to push yourself and muster up all of your mental strength (c'mon, you've got some!) to go down the 'groove' less travelled and make a new experience for yourself.


Now, i'm not a psychologist, and after reading this- you probably think I need to see one, but I am telling you; the basic fundamentals of this will change your experience and help you to change your life.

You can have the life you want.

You can.

and if you try this out for yourself; you will.

You just have to stop eating today's lunch out of yesterdays bin.

Give yourself some new mental food for thought.

Challenge your ideals.

Stretch your beliefs and find out if you have been hiding from some truths.

Now go out there and reconnect with the truths that are in your heart.

Give yourself what you fucking want!

Get what you deserve!

It's not going to be easy (we are battling years and years of repetition baby) but it is going to be WORTH IT.


PREACH!!!

:)

Pic from lifewithoutandy.

I BELONG TO NONE.

 

JE VOUDRAIS

I want a man who
will make me feel like I'm an integral part
of an orchestra, or make me feel like an
intimate part of a jazz ensemble, or make
me feel like the mouth of a river, a tributary,
the current that carried Moses, that made
him a king, a hero, a savior, a man.

Embouchure.

ALL I WANT.

I don't ask for much.
Not often anyway...
but all I want (really badly) is an Olympia Le Tan bag.
For book lovers and bag lovers. For me.

http://www.olympialetan.com/#collections/you-are-younger-than-you-think.html

In the words of Henri Matisse, "There are always flowers for those who wish to see them".

Disappointment has a face.

It's yours.

It's you at 3 am when you realise things aren't going to turn out the way you wished them to.

It's resigning to the fact that no matter how much you try, it just won't work.

It's your final bow to the curtain that never opened.

But disappointment also has a friend, called Hope.

Hope turns up when you're listening to that song that fills you with butterflies.

Hope is listening to you and hears that you need a fresh start.

Hope is your reminder that you haven't completely lost yourself and that under all the layers of disappointment; you didn't get squashed.

With every disappointment that you lay to rest, with every journey that comes to an end and with every love story that breaks your heart before it has even begun; you always have a choice.

You can choose to be bitter, to be disappointed, to be hopeless and "give up", or you can dust yourself off and surrender yourself to the infinite possibilities that the universe offers.

The opportunities that you will only see, if you are looking.

Don't give up.

Don't stop trying.

Look for yourself in the rubble of shattered dreams.

Pick yourself up.

Dust yourself off.

and present yourself as a child of the universe, with an endless capacity to love, be loved and radiate unapologetically with all of the goodness this magnificent world has to offer.

PAST/PRESENT/FUTURE.

ONCE YOU KNOW SOME THINGS YOU CAN'T UNKNOW THEM.

IT'S A BURDEN THAT CAN NEVER BE GIVEN AWAY.

—Alice Hoffman, Incantation

  

Singin' the blues about the burden of memory.

They say that sometimes you can 'forgive but not forget' which I can definately attest to.

It's a double edged sword.

Forgiveness is healing, it's a release from negative tension that you may hold on a topic. It is a conscious decision that you make to let go and move forward. It is HEALTHY.

Forgetting is a much longer process. One might hold onto a painful memory long after the event has happened, and even longer after forgiveness has been blessed.

Forgetting doesn't go hand in hand with forgiving, which makes the process of moving forward often difficult and arduous.

I can forgive people, for my own sanity. I can forgive people to keep myself flowing with positivity and not harbouring ill feelings or negative emotions.

but I cant simply forget what has happened, and at times, this makes me feel like I am swallowing metal.

Because I don't understand how people can simply be so GODDAMN FUCKING SELFISH.

life isn't about YOU.

It is about OTHERS.

Learn to Give. Learn to LIVE.

WILD ROSES.

Today I was suprised with a beautiful rose.
The most beautiful of roses that I ever did see.
She has a long, thick stem.
She has bright green and crispy leaves.
She was delivered to me with sparkles of water illuminating her candy red rimmed petals.

The most beautiful of gifts, come from the most unexpected of people and light up the day like happiness set on fire.

Make time to suprise people.

Find a moment to make someone feel special.

and don't ever lose the ability to be amazed by every day things.

There is nothing ordinary in the extraordinary.


xxxxxx

ART OF THE HEART.

"In a perfect world, you could fuck people without giving them a piece of your heart. And every glittering kiss and every touch of flesh is another shard of heart you'll never see again."
― Neil Gaiman

KNOWLEDGE.

"I've been making a list of the things they don't teach you at school. They don't teach you how to love somebody. They don't teach you how to be famous. They don't teach you how to be rich or how to be poor. They don't teach you how to walk away from someone you don't love any longer. They don't teach you how to know what's going on in someone else's mind. They don't teach you what to say to someone who's dying. They don't teach you anything worth knowing."
― Neil Gaiman

MAIS OUI.

Tell me you love me
Kiss me in different places
Show me how you see the world
Let me see all your different faces
Hold my hand in slumber
chase me through the sheets
and  I promise you that  yours will be the only lips that mine meet.

I WILL WAIT.

Raise my hands
Paint my spirit gold
And bow my head
Keep my heart slow

LOVE

FOR MY FRIEND, JESS.
YOUR LOVE BUG FOR LIFE IS CONTAGIOUS.

IN YOU.

I got to got to let you down
But in an hour I will change my mind
I got to got to let you down
But in an hour I will change my mind

It is like magic to me
Making mistakes and be forgiven easely
It is like magic to me
Making mistakes an be forgiven easely (easely)

Fuu!
I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind
I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind

She does it all the time
Making mistakes and then I'll ease her mind

She does it all the time
But she's so pretty and I don't mind

I got to, got to let you down
But in an hour I will change my mind
It is like magic to me
Making mistakes and be forgiven easely (easely)

I got to let you down
Got to let you down
I got to let you down
Got to let you down

I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind
I know she lets me down
But just for a short while
Then she changes her mind

She does it all the time
Making mistakes and then I'll ease her mind

She does it all the time
But she's so pretty and I don't mind

She does it all the time
Making mistakes and then I'll ease her mind

She does it all the time
but she's so pretty and I don't mind

She does it all the time
Making mistakes and then I'll ease her mind

She does it all the time
But she's so pretty and I don't mind

GIRLS.